saturday
went out gave something to my friend.
although promised BOSS i wont go out.
but i still went.
because it was really important.
well,
only within an hour but what harm can be done right?
so just went for it.
little did i know that my worse nightmare had arrived.
refused to comment much about it.
feeling dead.
sunday
met up with someone at ut.
although my body system disallow me to.
i forced myself to act normal.
we went to kb house to settle some matters.
earlier before,
saw qh at ut.
shit.
he asked me what happened to me.
i just told him generally.
guessed he reported it to BOSS.
few hours later,
my eardrums were yanked by BOSS who called me and asked where i was at.
asked him to just wait at ut.
part of my mind told me to run away from him.
but to prevent things from worsening,
i just go ahead to meet where he was waiting for me.
was nagged and shouted at.
i never replied like how i would use to.
i just gave him my stoned face.
for a moment people thought that BOSS was my father.
-_-".
he knows he's limping,
still went to wait for me for what.
he even took a few minutes to just go up on a bus.
-_-".
monday
morning chat with ricky on the phone.
went online.
had conference with BOSS also.
but my bad,
i had to go off at an early timing.
my body system acted up again.
went to vomit and then slept.
at night,
went online again.
was just chatting with ricky and refused to chat with BOSS.
everything was okay until,
BOSS done it again.
i straightaway went to talk to him.
he was totally totally different.
i know that his previous case was acting up on him again.
tried my best to disrupt his mind but to no avail.
called up qh,lw and gab.
nobody actually picked up the phone!!
panicked!
few moments later,
lw called back and asked why did i called him.
i told him everything.
he was stunned too for a moment.
because both of us actually was witnessing this case on BOSS previously.
we did not know what to do.
lw decided to call BOSS house.
what a good idea that was.
only to find out that BOSS was not at home!!!!
and it was near 10 oclock at night!!
where in the hell could he be??!!!
and how in the hell could he chat with me then??
only solution,
he went out and brought his laptop with him.
to think of it,
i already cried.
we have come to a dead end.
we dont even know where he is.
he didnt even picked up his phone.
and worse,
he suddenly signed out from msn.
how worried can i not get??
i was already feeling lethargic and could collapse anytime.
and this thing must happen.
at about 10.30,
lw called and told me that BOSS could not go that far.
so he picked me up in a taxi and we went to search for him.
we were cracking our braincells to think where can he go to.
been to various places but BOSS was not there.
finally,
a thought came up to my mind.
BOSS once told me when we were doing CIP together once.
at one place where i wouldnt want to reveal it here,
is the place where he went out with his mom for the last time.
and thats the only solution i can think off.
my brain's dead.
so we tried our luck.
BOSS was indeed there.
wouldnt want to reveal more in details what had happened.
board up the taxi and i went home.
lw brought BOSS to his house.
by the time,it was already near 1.30 am.
headed straight to bed.
was praying hard that nothing happens to BOSS.
today
woke up quite late than other days.
called lw to find out how's BOSS doing.
glad to find out that he's fine and as per normal.
BOSS claimed that he didnt know what he was doing and what he was thinking. all he know was that he was typing for the whole time.
but he was oblivious to what the hell he was typing.
and that was why it scared the shit out of me yst when in msn.
didnt want to enquire more.
the thought of it just made me shivers.
i fear that history would repeat back itself once again.
was just glad that BOSS was okay.
thank god.
dad asked if i wanted to follow him and bro go simlim to buy psp.
i may have the chance to own one too.
but NAHHH~
not interested.
at about 2 plus,
went out with lw to send BOSS home.
and yes,
BOSS was so different than how he was like in msn yst.
i just wanted him to stay like how he used to.
that would be fine.
at home,
was asked to help my bro with his newly bought psp.
cant even have my own peace.
im still feeling sick.
trying to be strong~~~~~
to the cold blooded creatures and heartless animals.
u had gave me my medicine.
a slap was enough.
why did all of u have to hound me again??
that was all in the past.
cant u all just be matured enough to think?
dont go around showing powers.
it wont do anybody any good.
as long as all of u still wont retaliate,
i wont retaliate too.
drips of blood and the burden of pain is nothing to me.
if i ever die in all of ur hands,
i would still die in honour.
because i have faith that all of u would be charged with murder.
and would be put behind bars for life or even hanged.
and if that time really comes,
u all really do deserved it.
bless all of ur fucking souls.
this is specially dedicated to my BFF.
I understand that there are some problems.
And I am not too blind to know.
All the pain you kept inside you.
Even though you might not show.
If I can't apologize for being wrong.
Then it’s just a shame on me.
I’ll be the reason for your pain.
And you can put the blame on me.
im sorry for being a pain.
im sorry for being stubborn.
im sorry for making u worry.
im sorry for not noticing ur effort.
im sorry for avoiding u.
im sorry for chiding u.
im sorry for not understanding u.
im sorry for doubting u.
im sorry for suspecting u.
im sorry for not believing u.
im sorry for troubling u.
im sorry for not appreciating u.
im sorry,
my BFF.
i will always be here when u need me.
u take care of urself.
thats the most important thing.
; DEATH AWAITS
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