just that it ends at 4pm which i can say is a miracle?lol.
really alot of things i got to know yesterday.
my aunt and that fucking uncle is officially going to be divorced.
my aunt really did the right thing.
this kind of men deserved to be ditched and rot in hell.
im just so disappointed.
why BOSS never tell me the truth.
for the fact that it concerns health and sumore internal injury.
why he need others to tell me and me myself find out the truth plus further insisting and questioning then he tell me everything???
what does he take me for?
dun want me to worry.
bullshit.
then when he did those things will that make a difference?
i've never blamed u about what happened yesterday night.
in fact ur instinct was right.
if u never send lw there,
i may be dead by now.
i shud be grateful to u.
i never blame u.
so please dun ever blame urself or make things look like it is all ur fault.
in fact i shud say is my fault because due to this revenge,
u get involve.
yesterday night conversation.
i've never heard u cried so bad.
u keep apologising.
why in the hell u apologise when it is never ur fault??
i have never blame u my BFF.
things happen for a reason.
what's done cant be undone.
my injury dont reflect ur mistake.
seriously.
by saying those things,
u just made me more sad.
dun say u dun deserve to be my friend.
dun say im very unlucky to have known u.
dun say u made me suffer.
dun say u dun deserve to be a human.
dun say i wasted my time for u.
and please,
dun say that if u had known this would happen,
u would kill urself initially.
dont let this matter affect u.
I HAVE NEVER BLAMED YOU!
i've had this enough.
i dunwan to get other people involve.
let me just settle this on my own.
yes in fact im scared.
get it?
im really really very scared.
my life is at risk.
i cant hide this feeling any longer.
but i just cant afford to get other people involve and get into trouble because of me.
this is my own problem.
my own matter.
my own past mistakes.
and this is the consequences.
i cant let the people around me to be hurt.
just let me survive by myself.
let me deal with this on my own.
i know it cant be settle peacefully.
but it's better for only one person to suffer than more.
for the fact that the targetted one is me,
so let them come to me.
im willing to accept.
i dunwan others to interfere.
let me face this on my own.
if people around me feel guilty about yesterday's situation,
then fine.
let me just go for it on my own.
so,
the guilt and blame n sufferings will all go to me.
i cant let others feel bad and get themselves involve in things that does not even involve them.
it will just make me feel guilty.
and if anything happens to them,
i will not redeem the guilt and regret in myself.
and that is why,
just dun care about me.
care about urself is better.
im willing to accept my own consequences.
i wont let u all get hurt anymore.
even if im dead or what,
at least i die carrying my own guilt and responsibility and no regrets.
i die for myself.
all of u still need to move on with life.
so,
just leave me alone.
i cant let u all suffer anymore.fullstop.
; DEATH AWAITS
6:17 PM
6:17 PM
