then go RP accompany her do her test.
had breakfast there.
9.30 went off to causeway.
wan go shop also no mood.
halfway there umbrella OC alrd called kb n ask her for blood type thingy.
then ask until v fierce.
kb was like shouting in the middle of cosway point. -_-"
this umbrella OC also dunno wad he doing.
got job like no job.
then scam government money.hmmmm.
go back sch early.
kena stalked by some people.
dont wish to elaborate.
just made my mood worse.
hide inside NP room like wtf.
training started with component training for a while.
then mass.
then component training again.
to be frank,
some people really deserve a spank on the ass.
just made me pissed off with their performance.
altho there are still improvements in some people,
why are there still some others who dont even bother to improve but in fact spoilt the whole thing.
spoiler.
i understand if people cant take it.
but just think la.
if u fall out or whatever,u dunnid almost one hr to rest right.
sumore is not really considered very tough.
hentak kaki a few SECONDS only cn still say VERY tough.
wad if i let everyone hentak kaki for nearly half an hr like wad i've gone thru.
dont tell me EVERYONE instant faint.
i cn do that if i want.
i cn be the most mean and unreasonable person.
but i chose not to because even if i do so a millionth time,
there would still be not much of a difference.
so why bother?
case by case happened.
problems by problems came up.
everything lined up nicely within just one day.
which is today.
sumore that DUMBANG woah sian.
my mood already bad.
seeing people nt performing already made it even bad.
but seeing his face and his actions made my mood worse.
he took drill cane from me.
nevermind.
he never give back.
nevermind.
he stand in front ask the squad fall in.
nevermind.
he took over command and took charge of squad.
OF COURSE I MIND!
i didnt even said anything.
furthermore,
i tried my best to be as attitude-ed as possible to make the cadets wake up.
but he there still got the cheek to entertain the cadets with his fcuking lame jokes!
and surprisingly his lame jokes made the cadets LAUGH!
when in the first place,
i already ask them to b serious n CUT THEIR SMILE.
and this DUMBANG there happily with his trying-to-gain-popularity kind of face crack up some damn fcuking lame jokes to the cadets DURING DRILLS!!
throw face.
really damn pissed.
i instant kept quiet and stood aside.
and very unexpectedly,
he got no guilty conscience at all.
until when KB came then i took over.
when KB asked him,
he still said took turns give command wad.
then wad was the initial small meeting in NP room for?
for fuck?
he's trying to make me look like im gaining power and im the ruthless wan there.
so he is so called the hero who came to the rescue and slack with them during drills.
and sumore act cute.
is not i dunwan to give break okay.
i tried my best to give break as frequent as possible.
but if the performance tt people are giving me really scuks,
i dont think anyone deserve the break.
i spent my time planning when shud i start giving breaks and all.
then wad does the mini mini 3 minutes break i gave meant?
not break meh?
so how long everyone want?
3 hours?
FINE.
i just feel like dunwan to care anymore.
i just feel like saying if u all want break,
go as and when u want.
i dun mind.
if u think ure tired,
go have ur break.
i dun mind.
if u think u all cnt take it or dehydrated,
go have ur break.
i dont mind.
and FYI,
i managed not to drink water throughout training.
this was wad i'd vouched for myself earlier.
someaning i do that for nothing.
i'm the one who deserve a break.
i very much want a break.
it's me who suppose to ask for a break.
FINE.
ALRIGHT.
im the most mean,unreasonable,evil,torturous person in the world.
i gave 3 mins break.
that DUMBANG gave 5 mins break.
FINE.
he's the saviour.
im the bad one okay?!
i sometimes feel i came for nothing.
wad for i come when people dont appreciate it,
people step over my head,
people who can make me throw face,
people who cn eventually make me look like a fool,
people who still want for more.
k.
whatever.
i dun give a fuck.
maybe i shud try shutting my own trap.
dont wish to continue on the topic.
went CCK interchange with Ricky to proceed back home.
in bus 302 le,
BOSS called.
asked me where i am.
so i told him i in bus from CCK to go home.
then fine.
he said okay n our conversation hung up.
i thought it was just normal for him to called me and asked irrelevant qs.-_-".
when my bus reached the bus stop,
i instant stunned when i saw BOSS,qh,lw n gab.
earlier before,
BOSS spam me msges with craps when i was in macdonald.
and nearly half n hr later,
he's right in front of my eyes.
i thot what had happened.
then i got to know that qh told him about my blog and told him about the case.
BOSS threw tantrums at the bus stop.
keep insisting why i didnt told him about it yesterday.
and i told him my reasons all.
then again.
he nagged wad he came down just to ensure nth happen la wad la.
then sumore say if sumthing happened,
he there la wad la.
then sent me home like i really in grave danger like that.
but actually very cute la okay.
lol.
in the middle of the night.
kena escorted like bodyguards.
other ppl also looking.
the okay.
i got home safely and they all went home.
isnt it a waste of their time?
anyway i really appreciated it larhs.
thanx to u all.
wad an embarassment.i can imagine myself crying out loud on the actual day.it would really be an embarrasment.from the way u said it.i appreciate u giving comments about the volume n wadever in the squad.but to be frank,i really cnt do much.for the fact that u realised it,i knew it.sure many people have the same opinion.but as i said,i've drained my energy enuff shouting to give motivation n give some training.but all efforts were not worth it.so what can i do..?i dun really wish to go on the actual day though if i cn predict wad i will get.i really thank u for telling me ur opinion a few mins ago.but as i said,just what cn i do when people dunwan to make the effort n appreciate wadever i've done.
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