i had heard enough.
i had talked enough.
and now,
i just had had enough.
from the moment u all are being hated.
from the moment u all are being demoralised.
from the moment u all are being brought down.
from the moment u all are being complained upon.
from the moment u all are being humiliated.
i've seen it.
i've witnessed it.
i did not do anything.
i feel guilty of myself.
if i had done something earlier,
these kind of things would not be happening.
it's not that i dont want to do.
it's not that i cant be bothered.
i just dont have the authority to do anything.
i just cant do anything.
i've hide this feeling for so long.
i've hide this unhappiness for so long.
and now,
i can hide it no more.
i've once been in all of ur positions.
i know how u all felt.
i felt worse.
when decision was made,
i was the most unhappy one.
i was the most unsatisfied one.
i was the most guilty one.
but i did not do anything.
i tried to put in good words.
i tried to convince the others.
i tried to help.
but i just felt too weak and betrayed and cheated to do anything.
i want my opinions to be voice out.
i want to be heard.
u asked me for suggestions and ideas.
i gave them to u.
but after that,
u questioned me back.
so u mean u dont trust me?
then why in the hell u waste my energy then?
i let u do what u want then.
i just feel ashamed.
i just want to apologize.
because i know it's partly my fault all these happen.
i just want to say im sorry.
; DEATH AWAITS
8:41 PM
8:41 PM
