i know this one of the longest duration since i last blogged.
until there is someone there on my tagboard who ask me update,
then i realise i havent update my blog for quite a long time.
right FABIAN!
yes.
the lame shiat FABIAN!
like how he referred me as in his blog.
like being requested,
im putting his name in my post BIG BIG.
FABIAN!
i guess the others like RENA will bombard me too.
hahaha.
he miss D07 CIBTC.
talking about it,
i miss it too!!!
only the 9 days rc though.
not the 4 days atc.=)))
i miss talking plus kbkb with FABIAN KOH la...
RAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
>.<
RENA we really must meet up soon.
yes,
before school start.
we really must meet up.
with the others too.
people like JULITTAAAAA,JIAHUI and the most unforgettable FABIAN!
(fabian, i know u will get high reading this)
haiz.
really miss those days.
really miss all of them.
why must most of u go TP?!
rena,jiahui,fabian,kah hwee,aaron.
all go TP.
wahhhhhhhhhh.
RENA,
TP RULES.
dun make me jealous la u.
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last saturday was the guys campcraft competition preliminary rounds.
well,
whats done cannot be undone.
and whats over no point brooding over it.
u guys have tried ur best and already perform what u all can.
just take the whole thing as a learning journey and experience gained.
=)
while in HTA,
was mainly spotting D07 people.
other than that,
my effort of searching for SoonKeng failed.
but fret not.
i saw EngKhye and Jolene!
and Jolene actually smiled at me!
how sweet.
lol.
let me recall who i spotted that day.
BingXiang,Elizabeth,Eric,Razak,KangMing,Suhaini,Skandan,ZhuangYi,Huiping,Philo,Letts,JunBao,Terence,XiuLi..
i know there's more but i just couldnt recall any further.
the way Razak laugh on that day regarding something keeps playing in my mind.
it was REALLY ROFL la!!!!
mee toh.
wth.
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brother fail math for CA1.
not my fault become my fault.
sister dunno how to draw.
not my fault also become my fault.
reach home late.
kena nag.
(u know wat time alrd?why reach home so late?)
reach home early.
kena nag.
(u usually reach home so late.why today suddenly so early?)
want to eat.
kena nag.
(u know i today never cook and u want to eat)
duwan to eat.
kena nag.
(u know i already cook for u,u duwan eat)
i really do wonder why.
i wonder which planet all my family members came from.
resulting in the presence of me,
this INHUMANE person.
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im really worried sick for u.
ur com is ur mom.
and ur com is ur life.
ur com is gone now.
and so did ur mom.
but u shouldnt make urself gone in this world.
yes u may not try anything funny.
but by torturing urself unhealthily,
is that not considered something funny ure trying to do?
i duwan a 2yrs back incident repeat itself again.
i duwan to check on u for the whole week when u spent all ur time in bed.
likewhat u say,
u have no one in this world.
u have no family.
even friends,
they only come n go and not as dedicated as well as committed.
but u forget one thing.
u really forget one thing.
im still alive.
u have me.
im always by ur side eversince 4 years ago.
u can always count on me.
and also now,
u have ur brother with u.
u always told me u regard this brother like a real blood brother u have on ur own.
even ur brother is very thoughtful of u.
he dotes and look up to u.
but this is not how u should be showing him how a big brother should be like.
ure not useless.
neither are u hopeless.
ure just lost in ur own world.
ure too affected by ur own emotions.
i may say to u that u trouble me.
u irritate me.
but truth to be told,
im not the least troubled by u.
im not irritated by u.
ur brother also would think the same thing.
if we're not the people whom u trust,
theres no one else whom u can turn to.
only if u do all these stuffs to urself,
then i would say ure troubling us by making us worry.
u have no idea how affected i am with this problem that u have right now.
because like u urself know,
i cn never escape from being affected by anything involving u.
u know u mean a lot to me eversince the past 4 years.
whoever ure angry with,
whoever u target on,
i would know the reason why u felt like that and i would be supporting.
i know i may not do much to support ur stand as i have my own principles and restrictions.
but believe me,
i will really do what i think is right for all of us.
and that would include,
like u say,
even to the extent of risking my own life.
i would.
' if by turning back to our past personalities and our past activities would help,
we can really do it for each other's sake
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i really should go and sort things out.
i really should make it clear.
yes i will do it.
i really will go and confess.
; DEATH AWAITS
9:32 PM
9:32 PM
