The right time to see u having a taste of ur own medicine.
All these are really getting on my nerves.
All these are really getting too much.
Eversince November 23 2007,
U can see that I have lost whatever respect and trust that I had on u.
It was a mistake for me to befriend u.
Or have I ever treat u as my friend?
As far as I myself know,
I didn’t.
U were a stranger to me.
Until now,
At this point of time,
Ure still a stranger to me.
U have never regard me even as ur friend.
Thanks to someone else who enlightened me about that.
I finally know whatever u had done behind my back.
Really thank you for that.
Why do I need other people to make me realize that im being controlled by u?
I was just plain dumb and stupid to follow u all along.
Ure not one of my family member.
Ure not my relative.
Ure not someone of higher position than me.
URE NOT EVEN MY FRIEND.
But just why?!!!
After all the fucking dirty stuffs u had done on me,
U still have the fucking courage to control my life!!!!!
Why do I have to follow wadever u said?
Why do I have to follow all ur evil stances?
Why do I have to do all that?
Why do u expect me to appreciate u when u dun even fucking appreciate me?!
Who thought of whatever ideas for u to complete ur job?
Who sacrifice most of the time for u?
Who came down all the way and waste fucking transport fares for u?
Who sacrifice own family just for u?
It is ME u fucking bitch!
U chained me.
U controlled me.
Not only me.
Even the people around me.
Those loved people around me.
U give hell to their lives.
U think u have all the power to do anything.
U think ure god who can ruin other people’s lives.
U think ure that great.
No wonder u dun have any true friends who appreciated u.
No wonder people can come out with a lot of bad stuff to go against u.
Truth to be told,
I support all of whom who go against u.
Because they realize that ure a fucking devil much more earlier than me.
Like I said,
Im just too stupid to realize anything bad about u before this.
U have no idea how many days and how many nights I cried all because of u.
U have no idea how many times my tears have dried up.
U have no idea how many times I troubled others especially my BOSS to tell them about what fucking shit u gave me.
It is already bad u did this to my life.
It is already bad u messed up my life.
It is already bad u made me suffer.
All of these I experienced it on my own.
But I really cant accept it when I got to know u messed up others live too.
And u even dare to make me look like the scapegoat.
Because of u,
I made people suffer.
Im the one u target on.
But u hit on other people.
U intrude in their lives.
Just to want to get to know information about me,
U disturb others lives.
And all these people are suffering because of me!
And ure the devil who masterminded all these.
Ure happy right making me look like a devil.
Same like urself.
A fucking devil.
Ure no one who can end my relationship with all my lovely friends and people.
I really cant bear to see other people suffer because of me.
I really cant bear to see other people fear of something they shuldnt fear of because of me.
I really cant bear to see people suffer when they befriend me.
I really cant bear to see people suffer when they’re with me.
I really cant bear to see people suffer when they’re close to me.
If really to the extent,
I wont mind ending any friendship relationship that I had with these suffering people.
No matter how close our friendship-ness were.
Because I duwan more sufferings to occur behind my back.
God had finally lighten up my path.
I found my own path to follow.
I found those of whom I should look up to.
I really apologise to those of whom I had done them wrong for as long as im involved with this fucking devil.
I finally realized myself at this point of time.
Although it may seem a little too late,
But something really had to be done.
Something that will make everything alright.
Something that will end my suffering.
Something that will end everyone’s suffering.
U can contradict urself.
But u can never make me contradict myself.
I’ve indeed learnt a lot from u.
Yes.
A lot.
And all of what I had learnt from u can sent me straight to hell.
Thanks for that.
I have never been scared of u.
U thot people are scared of u.
Sorry.
Ure wrong.
Ure just plain irritating that no one can stand it and just duwan to get involve with u.
U dunno my past.
U dun even fucking know what kind of person I was in my past.
Trust me.
U havent see the real me yet.
Yes.
THE REAL ME.
U think all those people who side by u are ur friends?
U think all those people who always call up on u are ur friends?
NO.
I can guarantee u.
NO.
In ur very crucial moment that u can ever experience,
All of these people wont even fucking bother about u.
I curse and swear u that u will be ALONE in the point of time ure suffering.
ALONE!
Me!
This stupid person over here shud be the one who help u at times of need.
But trust me,
When really the right time is happening,
When really the most crucial moment ure experiencing,
And u come to me for help,
All I can say is,
FUCK YOU.
I really had had enough of u.
Ive seen enough of u.
Ive suffered much under u.
U should be honoured.
U made the greatest impact in my life.
After everything has ended,
I duwan to have anyting to do with u.
I want to delete u off COMPLETELY from my life.
My BIGGEST mistake was to regard u as a friend in the first place.
It will sound perfect if I backstab u.
Because in the first place,
U fucking backstabbed me FIRST!
I really got a lot to say about u.
Thanks to my tiredness,
I shall stop here.
Will continue when the mood comes.
‘ When I initially thot that im the only one who has this thinking about u,
I just recently realized that the whole world is now by my side.
; DEATH AWAITS
10:05 PM
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